I Am What I Am

After having accrued 8 hours of yoga teaching I should be feeling more confident but I’m not. I feel critical of myself, my own practice and my teaching.

I feel alone. Standing up there at the top of the class is lonely as well as daunting. Don’t get me wrong, I love yoga, I love telling people how to get safely in and out of poses and I have a hands on approach to teaching it. However, currently I’m tired and not feeling like I’m enough.

I’m resisting the urge to seek validation outside myself as I know this feeling well. I need self assurance that I’m doing ok. I know I’ve come a long way but I also know I’ve a long way to go. My mind is resistant to the changes I am trying to make and is part of the reason I doubt myself.

Do I have any right to be teaching yoga when I can’t do headstand yet?

5 Comments

  1. Short answer— Yes.

    Why should one asana dictate the answer? That way, a batsman not having skill to play a bouncer should not play cricket at all!

    Arguably headstand is tough to crack, indeed, but I think it is the “anxiety” of seeing that as a milestone is causing the trouble. Once you treat it like any other asana, you will ease into it. “Visualise” while preparing for the asana, and it will come on its own.

    Good luck.

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