Since I last blogged, my life has changed significantly. My marriage broke down, I had a mental health crisis, I had to take absolute control of my own life and health.
I discovered yoga and meditation, I found peace. I found confidence in driving as well as many other things. I choose to be more honest with myself.
I accepted I never really knew how to love myself and the way I would talk to myself in my mind and the way I treated myself was deplorable.
Significant change has its pros and cons but the strength and liberation, not to mention the grounding I get from being the one that takes care of me is tremendous.
I stand on a precipice of choices trying to decide what my life will be about going forward. Once my husband was no longer the main relationship in my life I explored friendships and met new people. I find myself finding peace and stillness and enjoying the benefits they bring.
I drive every day. I do so with a little anxiety but with the objectivity that I am no different to the thousands of drivers out there.
I accept my feelings, I don’t berate myself for having them. I observe them and acknowledge them and I let them go.
Religion is for those who don’t want to go to hell, spirituality is for those who have already been there. I open my heart to accepting that there is a higher power.
Mostly I feel gratitude for being here, in this moment, at this time and exploring everything open to me.
From the 18th July 2019 I will be blogging regularly whilst I undergo a 3 week intensive yoga teacher training course. An intense start to the next phase of my journey.