After having accrued 8 hours of yoga teaching I should be feeling more confident but I’m not. I feel critical of myself, my own practice and my teaching.
I feel alone. Standing up there at the top of the class is lonely as well as daunting. Don’t get me wrong, I love yoga, I love telling people how to get safely in and out of poses and I have a hands on approach to teaching it. However, currently I’m tired and not feeling like I’m enough.
I’m resisting the urge to seek validation outside myself as I know this feeling well. I need self assurance that I’m doing ok. I know I’ve come a long way but I also know I’ve a long way to go. My mind is resistant to the changes I am trying to make and is part of the reason I doubt myself.
Do I have any right to be teaching yoga when I can’t do headstand yet?