I am an enthusiastic member of Slimming World, my husband is a target member and I was voted Woman of The Year in my group this year, however, it didn’t stop me from binging on chocolate Monday and a Tuesday this week. I’m not sure why I’ve lost control this week. I have lost nearly 2.5 stones since January 2012. I have come off my insulin and blood pressure tablets. I look much better even to me and clothes fit better, I have a wider choice in clothes yet despite these wonderful positive things I haven’t lost weight in the past 2 weeks.
I’m not perfect and I need to stop putting pressure on myself to be perfect. I can’t be someone else so I need to stop comparing my weight loss and it’s rate to others. I am here, I am losing weight and I’m thinner than I was and hoping I continue this Slimming World journey even if the road is a bit rocky and rough on the way.
I have felt unwell and have had to stop my efforts towards my gold award which I have to re-start. That was upsetting as I was over 4 weeks through on a 8 week training schedule. I think my disappointment at lapsing this has a lot to do with me craving chocolate.
I want to increase my super speed food intake today. I want to fill myself up with foods that will increase my weight loss as a result of its fibre content. Today is a new day. I hope I grab it and make myself feel better. I need to take inspiration from around me and stop my self-sabotage.
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Chocolate is always my downfall too – maybe a little bit of sweetness in between all those weeks that you worked so hard is not so terrible. 🙂
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You’re absolutely right Jo, but I think I was designed to beat myself up and I need to accept myself flaws and all.
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It’s really hard to try and stop beating yourself up and blaming yourself for everything. I do it a lot too – but much better than I used to be. It’s a traumatic place to be. I’m sure you’ll get to where you want to go, and learn to admire yourself totally – I think you’re a lovely lady.
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Aw thank you! Believe it or not I’m 100% mellower than I used to be. I can see when I’m being unkind to myself, I was totally oblivious for years. It takes time to adjust the attitude and learn to love ourselves (not in an egotistical overbearing manner) in a positive and constructive way. Being honest with myself and others has been the key for me.
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I totally get what you mean. I had to crash and burn before I started to look at my life and be sorry and forgive in all the right places. It was a lucky escape I think – I feel mainly the love these days. My birdies help – just like your gorgeous kitty guys.
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I think animals can teach us a thing or two about life.
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Howdy young lady, sounds like you have been working hard and deserve a bit of chocolate. To avoid the guilty feelings afterwards try using the 70% cacao versions rather than the milky variety. Lindt do a great chili and cherry 70% cacao bar. Keep up the good work. Granpa Guff
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Thank you Ganpa Guff! I will try those Lindt chocs with immense pleasure. 🙂
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